December 2010
66 posts
forthedancers asked: I just realized why I post so much! I feel super guilty if I post something that isn't a ballet picture. So when I post something personal or Skins or anything else, I post like 5 ballet things to make up for it. Haha.
Car Rides And Goodnights
*Holding out his hand*
Jeff: I'm waiting.
Me: Mhm...
Jeff: My hand is cramping.
Me: How long you gonna wait there?
Jeff: Forever.
College
So I had gotten into Hofstra and that’s it. I was freaking out because I hate Hofstra and no other schools had gotten back to me and I had a deadline. It was driving me mad. Hofstra was my ditch last choice out of five schools. Ew. Fuck Hofstra. Well today I got another acceptance fro my third choice college! Valparaiso! I’m so excited! Not my fifth or fourth choice, my third!...
So Basically...
…I hate myself. For a grand multitude of reasons. I’m a complainer. That’s all I do, really. That’s why I’m “good at writing”, because I’ve always got some kind of bullshit on my mind. Which leads me to another reason I hate myself. I’m always thinking and it never stops. On and on and on forever and it keeps me up at night. It makes me an...
forthedancers asked: Don't HATE it. How far are you? I swear, it gets better. It does suck at first. I don't like it as much, but I'm still into it. I really only dislike one character, Thomas -_-
A Vain Vein
Hollow veins,
Shouting names.
Teasing demons to the same.
Every right to me they claim.
I cry in vain.
“I think I’ve finally realized what it means to be grown up. I always...”
– Jal from Skins
tyranosauruslexx asked: WATCHIN' BEAUTY AND THE BEAST AND THINKIN' OF CHU, LAWLZ.
HappyHolidays
I just woke up. Awesomesauce. I’m gonna go eat something and Jeff is coming over at one. I’m terrified of what he got me because I gave him a lot of restrictions and apparently he went against them. Not good. Either he’s going to give me bad luck or… Who knows. Ohmygosh. T___T I need to stop worrying. Getting my camera lens today. FUCKING PUMPED.
As if...
As if you really know anything about me. About my life. About my past. Don’t kid yourself. You’ve barely scratched the surface and that’s as far as your getting ‘cuz the surface is hard as diamond’s edge. I don’t talk so I wont tell. Then again, I have nothing to say about this. Nothing to say at all. Don’t try to understand. It’s clear you never...
God's Gift Gone
The wind rolls through her hair, God’s fingers searching, for what once was his gift to mankind.
Flying Hair
You know the old cliche that life is like a roller coaster? Of course you do, who am I kidding. It’s so strange. My hair is flying, whipping back and forth in front of my face from the ride. Yesterday I was on the edge of emotional breakdown and today I’m content. I’m going to blame hormones. For now, though, I’ll enjoy the ride.
With happiness comes beauty. And sometimes it’s hard to feel beautiful so it turns into a never-ending cycle of dissatisfaction. But remember everyone has equal potential to be beautiful, therefore everyone is beautiful.
One Of Those Days
It’s going to be one of those days. I can feel it in the back of my brain. The kind where I just want to be alone and just the thought of doing anything is giving me a partial anxiety attack. True facts: I can’t handle life and I don’t want to.
Odd And End Jobs
I’m getting a lot of odds and ends kind of jobs as of late. And it’s kind of fantastic. It started with Michelle’s photo shoot. A lot of people saw it so I need to thank her for letting me use it publicly to show off my work. Then Mr. Bless contacted me, having somehow heard my reputation (yeah, apparently I have a reputation) and I ultimately made $100 off selling him my...
forthedancers asked: WOAH. So I was stalking my blog and I saw those earbuds you bought me for my birthday! The panda ones! I blogged them like...70 pages back haha.
Stop
Don’t ever wish to be someone you’re not because then you wouldn’t be you.
Roadmaps
I need a roadmap. A roadmap for life. I’m so conflicted. All I can think about is who I am. I am potential. Who can I be? I have no issue making friends. In fact, I make new friends every day, even those who are random people who compliment me or strike up conversation. It’s one of the perks of being female. And I know I can make money if I need to. Hell, I made $100 today off of my...
forthedancers asked: Hi. I couldn't reply to that video you reblogged. I didn't watch it haha. Just the first three seconds. Then I saw it had Jean Kilbourne. I read a book by her for Humanities. So effing boring -_- and that's my story.
“Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened.”
– Dr. Suess
<3 Enjoy.
I'm Not Laughing
It’s funny how when you’ve known someone your whole life when they’ve only ever been absent, you tend to expect things from them despite the fact that you have no reason to. Because they never fulfill the expectations. They always let you down.
36!
So I had 36 followers. Then I had 35. So I was sad. But I’m back up to 36. :D Huzzah and thanks.
“If you’re a bird, I’m a bird.”
– The Notebook
Seams
The seam of her skin, it trails down to her core. Unzip, it leads where no souls ever been. Virgin fears, virgin tears, stolen in silent solitude. It takes two to tango. Well, that’s what they say. Teasing eyes. Provocative lies. A fresh flower, warm and blossoming. Zip her back up. Put her away, along with her carnal dread.
You
Everyone is love crazed but don’t they understand?
Everyone is looking to be happy with someone else.
But don’t they know?
You can never be happy with someone else unless you’re happy with you.
Late
You wonder why I watch certain shows. You wonder why I write the way I write, how I even come of with half the shit that I write. Because it makes me understand it all. Whatever it is that needs understanding. It’s so enigmatic. You wonder why I take my time. It’s because you’re always late. In every sense of the word you can think of. You wonder why I don’t go out of my...
Paper Cranes
Like paper cranes we hang from strings,
And pretend we’re held up by our wings.
Why don’t we stop pretending and fly?
thinkofmewaking asked: He's becoming a soprano. I'm going to make it happen, your wish will come true. Haha
“Remember: even the smallest envelope is heavy for an elf.”
– Glee